I don’t know where this is headed but I’ll still write anyway.
Today my boyfriend’s in Vigan, 9 hours away from where I am. It’s vacation, and I’m boring to death. I wanna go out of town but I’m broke. I’m just chilling in this couch like a potato while writing something boring and reading something not really boring. My life’s a bore. No thrill. Chill.
So yeah, I started this blog because I want to publish my nothingness. I’ve got many drafts- more than 500- but someone’s been deleting them, so I would want to create a simple blog like this so no one could ever barge in.
I’m a frustrated writer. I write because I’m bored, because something came into my mind, and mostly because I want this and that to happen to me but it’s purely fictional so I write them instead. I got really obssessed with writing eversince I had friends, and those whom I want to befriend but they’re too popular to even look at me. I’m just a typical girl but a really crazy one, and impulsive. I had BPD, an emotional disorder. So, writing became my other world, because I can be who I wanna be when I’m writing. I can do what I want to do, and I can manipulate how I want things to happen. In short, I’m escaping my boring life by using the fictional world.
I am into music. I like music so much! I could actually build a life with just music inside because it’s my whole existence. Ever since a baby, I can remember me playing with my toys while listening to my uncle’s speaker. He introduced me to every rock band he could, then everyone on my family influenced me. My cousins and I, our bonding is jamming, singing, and composing songs. I’m actually rooting for an own band. It’s almost coming, I can feel it. Then, my boyfriend came, he doesn’t want me in the band because he’s jealous of the guys inside it. Actually, ‘Halocautic’ is actually my suggested name for the band. The members are from my section, and I’m really close with them. We jammed once, and it felt good. I’m still wishing for it to prolong, though.
One thing, Movies. I’m addicted in watching movies and TV series! I just downloaded iFlix yesterday, and started watching Glee. Hahaha. American Series are my pills. One of these days I will be posting a plan to watch. I’m trying to approach Kdrama, because they’re really good, but I cannot complete one. Movies are one of the reason why I am still breathing, an exaggeration but the truth.
I’m a grade 10 student this coming school year. I don’t really want to end junior higschool. My best friends, my classmates and friends, my boyfriend, I don’t wanna be away from them, even if we need to. I can’t accept we’ll be needing separation.
So, I’ve got no things to say. That’s all.
Kudos to the world, xoxo
-aian. 12:34 pht , 04/21/17